Much like our Portland weather - outlook Bleak

 

Overlooking South waterfront area, Snow on Hood

Since my last blog, Ruth rebled again.  I had gotten a phone call that they were about to pull the breathing tube, and 40 minutes later I got a call she bled so they left her on the ventilator.  Since then she has redeveloped shock and blood/fluid in her lungs.  With blood products and time, her bleeding has about stopped, but now her liver is going bad.  They're not sure why she's in shock this time exactly, as no organisms have been identified.  Multiorgan Failure is never good.  Doctors continue to tell me they don't think she will survive without a miracle, and even if she did, meaningful recovery would be unlikely given the time she's been on life support.  Well, since Ruth is starting out a genious, at worst we'll be equals now.  Ok bad time for humor but you got to during times like these (especially those who know me well).

On a more serious note:  I continue to hold out hope, pray, and ask for a miracle.  I know the doctors are doing their best; in fact I know the ICU doctor who is caring for her now (he once worked at my hospital), and he told me he's giving Ruth 110% of his effort to give her the best shot at survival.

Things look bleak, much like the Portland weather as shown above, but there's still beauty in the grand scheme of the bigger picture.

I'm about to take my parents out to the Columbia Gorge to see the color and all the waterfalls.  If you've never been to the northwest, you need to. It's beautiful out here. 

Thanks for continuing to follow this blog.  I know it's hard to follow and honestly if things go South, I'm not sure if I will be able to continue blogging or not.  I think knowing myself, I'd like do so to give not just me, but everyone following, a little closure.